Full Moon Goddess

09:00 pm: I'll be positively glowing!
Tomorrow I get to ingest radioactive iodine capsules. Hooray! Tuesday I get to have it injected into a vein. I'm so giddy I could just vomit!





(indeed that was sarcasm)

09:23 pm: Yes, I am still alive.

Had my ultrasound and it showed that I have an enlarged thyroid with cysts on it (lovely thought isn't it). Now I have to go in on the 21st and 22nd for a couple more tests.

This all sucks ass.

02:47 am: the excitement never ends
My 15 year old neighbor was shot in the head and killed in his front yard today. My mom and I heard the shot and looked out the door in time to see someone walk across my yard. His little brothers and sisters were all screaming and crying, they had no parents at home. My mom called 911 as one of the older girls came over and said her brother was shot. I asked if the guy who just walked across the yard was the one who did it and she said yes. I went with her back to her house and saw her brother face down in a pool off blood and knew he was dead. I tried to keep the kids calm until the police showed up. The gun the killer used was on the ground and his car still in the driveway with the door opened. He just left it all and walked away. I asked the kids if they knew him and they said yes and that they knew where he lived. The cops showed up and i went home. They roped off the area including half our yard. Later an officer came over and took statements from both me and my mom and I gave my description of the guy. Even later we had to write our reports. The news showed up and lit up the street with their lights. If your local and saw the news tonight you would have seen my house. The yellow truck belongs to my brother.

The part thats gonna stay with me the most isn't the image of the kid in a pool of his own blood, its the faces of his little brothers and sisters.

07:50 pm: Eureka!
Sister-in-law called her dental hygenist friend about my funky growth and she may have found the answer, turns out....

I'm abnormal!

I'm so relieved.

09:47 pm: Another day another dr visit. I've developed a hard lump on the roof of my mouth now. It's not really bothering me, except for the fact that it's there. It's added a whole new dimension to my stress level. The dr took a look at it and she's stumped. So now I have to add on a trip to the ear/nose/throat specialist to the growing list of diagnostic tests I have to have done.

*sigh* why can't I have something simple...like a broken leg.

08:50 pm: Life's been very hectic for the past couple weeks which would explain the lack of posts and/or comments. Lot's of ups and down. I don't even know where to begin.

I've been plagued by this mysterious illness that is causing the lymph nodes in my neck to swell up and become painful. Other then the swelling, the pain and a lot of fatigue I feel fine. I went to Urgent Care Saturday the 15th and had blood work done. All my levels came back normal. Went to the Dr. again today and now I have to schedule more bloodwork and an ultrasound of my neck and thyroid. I'm not happy about this. I don't know what I am more scared of, the drs finding something wrong or finding nothing wrong at all.

Alen was home on leave the same weekend I went to Urgent Care. I wish I had been feeling more energetic but it was still a good weekend. He had bought a bunch of fireworks in New Mexico and we went out into the desert that Friday night and shot them off. It was a lot of fun. Saturday night we had a family barbecue. It was good seeing him but it was bittersweet. He's in Kuwait now. I just read his latest LJ entry and it made me want to cry.

My older brother is getting divorced so he and my niece have moved in. It's great (albeit exhausting) having my niece around but my brother is driving me nuts. Come to think of it, maybe he's the reason my glands are swelling I'm probably just sick of him. Sorry that was lame.

My mom's family all gathered together in Mesa this weekend for a reunion. I was dreading going but it didn't turn out as horrible as I expected. Still, I wouldn't want to do it again any time soon.

I know i've just skimmed over everything and that I'm leaving a lot out but thats the big stuff. Writing updates lately feels like writing one of those Xmas newsletters that everyone hates and I apologize. With everything that's going on this journal has kinda been pushed to the bottom of my priority list. But I'm still here and I still find time to keep up on everyones journal, just dont be offended if I don't comment.

09:43 pm: One of my favorite patients died today. I didn't even get to say goodbye.

09:51 pm: I procrastinate!
I'm finally posting a pic of my eyebrow piercing...now that no one cares.

You're only getting a slighly blurry close up of my left eye...cuz I hate myself.


In other news. Life is routine. I miss school.

09:34 pm: "The world is perfect. It's a mess.
It has always been a mess.
We are not going to change it.
Our job is to straighten out our own lives"
-Joseph Campbell

"Probably the most important thing is that when
things get really bad and the world looks its darkest,
you just have to throw up your hands and say
"Well, alright!", cause it's probably gonna get a whole
hell of a lot worse."
-from "Cannibal: The Musical"

08:17 pm: Saw Brothers Grimm yesterday and was disappointed. I guess I was expecting something different.

Also got my hair cut again. It's a little above the shoulders with purplish highlights. I haven't had it this short in awhile. I'm still getting used to it.

So, yeah, that's my update

08:41 pm: ( FEAR ME!! )

03:26 pm: If I lived in Texas, I would totally vote for this guy to be my governor.

I’m an Independent, which is the party of George Washington, Teddy Roosevelt, Sam Houston, and Davy Crockett.”


As Governor, Kinky, or “the Kinkster”, would:
*Legalize casino gambling to fund education
*Abolish political correctness “We didn’t get to be the Lone Star state by being politically correct”
*Take a good look at death row. “We need to make sure that we’re not putting innocent people to death, which I believe we are”
*Outlaw the de-clawing of cats
*Bring young people into his administration. “Young people are less corrupt. They are the future of Texas ; it’s theirs to win or lose.”

I’m a Jew, I’ll hire good people.



and he's friends with Willy Nelson!

10:57 pm: Alen leaves for Fort Bliss (El Paso) Monday. He'll be there for awhile before being sent over to Iraq. His going away party was tonight. It was a lot of fun.

Reality hit me like a ton bricks on the way home tonight. Too many goodbyes. He's really going. I thought having a couple of months to prepare would make it be easier this time. It's not. It was too easy to push it aside. Now it feels like everything is happening too fast and he'll be gone too soon.


18 months

an eternity when you're worried about someone you love


please be safe Alen

09:19 pm: Naked snake pics
So I'm finally posting pics of Alen and Chris skinning and gutting the snake. Enjoy!!
( GROSS  )

09:18 pm: My brother got married!

( See the proof )

11:15 pm: My brother, Alen, and I went fishing Saturday. We know almost nothing about fishing but whatever. We headed northeast to the Mogollon rim. Of all the places in Arizona I have been, the Payson/Mogollon Rim area is my favorite. This area has some of the most breathtaking views I have ever seen.

The Mogollon Rim (pronounced Muggie-yawn, if you pronounce it otherwise I'll have to smack you) runs about 200 miles across Arizona. It was created when a great fault lifted the land to the north almost 8000 feet above the land to the south. It caused a division between the southern basin and range desert and the northern plateaus.

There is a forest road that runs about 50 miles along the edge of the rim. I drove it a few years back and was taken with the beauty of the area. It also passes by a few lakes. I figured that if we didn't catch anything (we didn't) at least we could have an adventure (we did).

What follows is our story...

( (Warning: very long and photo heavy) )

09:22 pm: I got my eyebrow pierced this weeked. Yes, I do like treating my body like a pin cushion, thank-you-very-much.

08:34 pm: Two posts in two days...im on a roll!
I really like my job, my coworkers are awsome and I have even learned to deal with my manager. Problem is I got paid today and I figured out that after I pay my bills (and I don't even have that many) I will have a total of 23 bucks left to last me two weeks. Thankfully I have some in savings to fall back on but I can't keep working for so little. I could make more working at In-n-Out burger. It's frustrating as hell! I work my ass off, do the same job as all the other techs and yet I am so horribly underpaid. Asking for a raise wouldn't do any good so the only option would be to go to another clinic... I dont really want to go to another clinic. I don't know what to do...arrrrgggh!

06:29 pm: My brother's reserve unit is being deployed. He's possibly heading back to Iraq or maybe even Afghanistan. There is a small chance he'll be sent somewhere stateside but that's not likely to happen. He's supposed to leave sometime in August and he'll be gone for up to 18 months. I can't say I'm surprised with this news. We all knew it was a big possibility he would have to go back. At least this time we got more notice. Last time he had a total of 12 hours before he had to leave. Can you imagine? 12 hours to get your shit together and tell everyone you love goodbye. Not an easy thing to do then again I doubt it'll be an easier this time.

I'll update as I get more info.

10:54 pm: Added new photos to my Flickr account, for those who are interested.